"How long, O Jehovah? wilt thou forget me for ever? How long wilt thou hide thy face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, Having sorrow in my heart all the day? How long shall mine enemy be exalted over me? Consider [and] answer me, O Jehovah my God: Lighten mine eyes...But I have trusted in thy loving kindness; My heart shall rejoice in thy salvation. I will sing unto Jehovah, Because he hath dealt bountifully with me." Psalm 13:1-6
No other words really state how I am feeling. When I read this passage from Scripture, I was instantly moved to tears. Boy did David have a way with words. He faced worse trials than I can even imagine, and yet he trusted in God despite his pain. But he was honest with God. He didn't hide his feeling with Him. And that's me...that's me here and now. I won't hide who I am right now. I am allowed to be sad feel ticked off because what I feel is "unfair." I know God is God and I am not. And the one thing I value second to the fact that I was saved by Jesus, is my relationship with Christ. No one can take away the relationship I have where I can talk to Him at any point of any day, even deep into the night, and He is there. No one can take a relationship where I am beyond open and can just talk and talk and talk to Him. And when I don't want to talk, I can just cry and cry and cry to Him. So yes I am sad...much like David here. But, at least I have Jesus. At least I have my Savior to talk to and even ask "How long O Lord?"
