And then you wake up and can't remember what you had dreamt
And mostly I dream of scary situations due to stress
Or just random times with family or friends because of a conversation I had earlier
You ever dream of something so real you can touch it?
You ever desire something so much you can actually feel it?
I have a dream that's all mine
I see that little one in my arms
And he has his Daddy's eyes
And a smile that will melt your heart
And I also see her
She’s a beauty with golden locks
A giggle that is infectious
And she has her Daddy wrapped around her little finger
And often times I realize I am dreaming while I am in it
And I sob because I don't want to leave that little boy or little girl
They are the ones I have been dreaming of for a long time now
They already have their names, and have had those names for years now
Those little ones have my heart and I just long to see them
I have allowed fear and worry to consume me at the thought this dream is only a dream
I have allowed my tears to consume my whole being
I allowed other's experiences
To determine whether I am hopeful or not
And even questioned the dream itself
But yet, I still yearn and desire to hold that little boy and little girl
With blonde hair and blue sapphire eyes
That loves to be held in mommy's arms as I rock them to sleep
And sing to them softly
A little boy that loves to play in forts, and build with legos
A little girl that loves to play dress up and has a million stuffed animals (just like her mom!)
A little boy that loves to wrestle with Daddy
And will hold his Daddy's hand as they go for a walk
A little girl that says "I love you, Mommy"
And I can't help but cry because that title is mine
A dream that is still that, but I see it so vividly
Would God have given me their names and meanings
If they weren’t going to become a reality?
Would I dream of that little boy and little girl
And cry at the very thought that they might not exist?
No - I will not give up on my dream of that little boy and little girl
I can't believe that God would give me that dream
Only for it to stay a dream only
I will trust, even when I don't see the "how"
I promise to give them both to the Lord
Completely dedicate them to God
I promise to teach them both all about Jesus
And will show them that the love of God is so vast and deep
I will talk about the amazing miracles He has done
Including the birth of my little one
I will tell them about Christ's sacrifice
Just so He could be with us in eternity
This dream will someday become a reality
A hope realized
A path finally seen
