And then you wake up and can't remember what you had dreamt
And mostly I dream of scary situations due to stress
Or just random times with family or friends because of a conversation I had earlier
You ever dream of something so real you can touch it?
You ever desire something so much you can actually feel it?
I have a dream that's all mine
I see that little one in my arms
And he has his Daddy's eyes
And a smile that will melt your heart
And I also see her
She’s a beauty with golden locks
A giggle that is infectious
And she has her Daddy wrapped around her little finger
And often times I realize I am dreaming while I am in it
And I sob because I don't want to leave that little boy or little girl
They are the ones I have been dreaming of for a long time now
They already have their names, and have had those names for years now
Those little ones have my heart and I just long to see them
I have allowed fear and worry to consume me at the thought this dream is only a dream
I have allowed my tears to consume my whole being
I allowed other's experiences
To determine whether I am hopeful or not
And even questioned the dream itself
But yet, I still yearn and desire to hold that little boy and little girl
With blonde hair and blue sapphire eyes
That loves to be held in mommy's arms as I rock them to sleep
And sing to them softly
A little boy that loves to play in forts, and build with legos
A little girl that loves to play dress up and has a million stuffed animals (just like her mom!)
A little boy that loves to wrestle with Daddy
And will hold his Daddy's hand as they go for a walk
A little girl that says "I love you, Mommy"
And I can't help but cry because that title is mine
A dream that is still that, but I see it so vividly
Would God have given me their names and meanings
If they weren’t going to become a reality?
Would I dream of that little boy and little girl
And cry at the very thought that they might not exist?
No - I will not give up on my dream of that little boy and little girl
I can't believe that God would give me that dream
Only for it to stay a dream only
I will trust, even when I don't see the "how"
I promise to give them both to the Lord
Completely dedicate them to God
I promise to teach them both all about Jesus
And will show them that the love of God is so vast and deep
I will talk about the amazing miracles He has done
Including the birth of my little one
I will tell them about Christ's sacrifice
Just so He could be with us in eternity
This dream will someday become a reality
A hope realized
A path finally seen
I had those dreams about Emily probably starting a decade ago. I cried too when I woke up. I was married to a bad man, who decided the week after we married that we weren't going to have children, after telling me we could. Once he told me that if I ever got pregnant he would throw me down the stairs. After years, and struggles, I got out, but thought my chance was gone. I was 29 and divorced. I felt I was a failure. Then suddenly God brought Greg into my life. It was quick, for me and him, and our families, but I'm certain I'm where God led me. Now Emily is here and I don't have to cry anymore. Just keep hoping, and living the way you should. You never know what will happen.
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