As I Lay Here....

As I lay here holding you as you finish eating
Holding my hair tight as you finish your last sip of your bottle
And your Daddy is sleeping to my right
I marvel at how serene and quiet it is at 3 AM
And how the best part of life is here in this bed

Your breath on my face as you fall asleep
I touch your cheek and brush your hair back out of your face
I hear you sigh deep and long
I know you are deep in sleep and happy as can be
I run my hands on your cute little feet. I touch each toe

It's such a perfect moment
I can't help but remember the night you were born
How you would only stop crying when placed on my chest
How you needed my heart beat to calm down
First time in my life I have felt so needed

I think back on our first few nights
and how I was so scared
and I really didn't do a very good job with you
I remember getting so upset since I was so sleep deprived, and
because I didn't know how to handle your crying

But just a few weeks later, you and I were bonding like no other
You and I were having fun together
We went to the park almost every week
and you loved to stare up at the trees and hear the birds
You smiled all the time, and it was all for me!

You still smile at me, when you first wake up
when you see me as I pick you up from the babysitter
You smile at me when I make a funny noise
You smile when I sing to you
or even just when I look at you.

You have a smile that melts hearts everywhere
We go out to dinner and people have to stop by to say "Hi"
Or we are at the grocery store, and people just want to talk to you
Your giggle is the sweetest sound in the world
And it has quite literally made me bawl with pride

I love the curiosity you have as you want to explore everything
Even before you could crawl around the house
You explored everything with your eyes
You have learned so much in so little time
and I am so proud of you, little man!

You continue to amaze me as I stare at you
You are so smart, so strong, and so incredibly special
My heart is insanely full with you in my life
I can't imagine this world without you in it
and no world without you is worth it

You are the sunshine of my life, dear son
I love how proud you are when you learn something new
and how you look at us to make sure we see you
Dear boy, we are proud of you no matter what
Just you being in our lives is enough pride, filling my heart to overflow

I love you, my darling Caleb
I promise it is unconditional and full of hope and promise
and as I sit here holding you as you sleep
as you fall into your precious dreams
I know that my biggest dream was when you came into my world

 ~ S. Taber